Wednesday, September 25, 2013

i feel fine

by reading the def'n of Acrophobia i don't have it exactly...
but i am afraid of heights.

that's right.

oh, 
i can sit on a cliff edge with my feet dangling over and be at peace.
i can admire the height and view.

however...
i'm not so good at scaling something (rock face...wall) that takes my feet higher than my own height.
i can do it if need be.. i have done it..
but most times at some point (even if tied in) i will freeze.
i will cling with all my strength.
i may cry as i rest my forehead against the wall.
i will need to slow my breathing.
i will need to know i have a good grip.
i will sometimes come down and give up.
i will sometimes calm enough.. pray enough.. and finish the task.
i will sometimes come down, regroup and do it again.

Then there's coming down from a height.
i have rappelled.  
highest is about 30ft.
i am completely freaked out stepping over the edge, 
and good once i get going.
i have cliff jumped 
largest being about 10ft.
don't care for it.
usually i stand there staring at the water wondering why this is fun for people.

that brings me to how i'm feeling about sunday.

on sunday i'm doing Tough Mudder.

THIS. SUNDAY!
**insert scream mixed of fear and excitement**

the route was posted for us to see.
dan and i went through the event with the kids.
checking out each obstacle.
some of them consist of: 

mud. 
tunnels. 
barbed wire.
electrical shock.
hay bales.
log carry.
teammate carry.

some of them are crazy, and i wonder why i signed up for this..as do many other people.

however...

the ones that make me nauseous..
the ones that make me wonder why i'm doing this are:

Balls to the Wall  
This is definitely not the rope climb that you remember from elementary school gym class. This monster of an obstacle will have you scaling 15’ up in the air, using only a muddy rope and a slick muddy wall to kick off of. Once you reach the top you must turn around and work up the courage to descend the rope on the other side. Mudders that don’t have a rope, like to train by alternating between pull ups and chin ups.
see pictures here

Walk the Plank
Test your fear of heights and cold all in one with our 15+ foot high jump into freezing water. Mudders℠ like to display their fancy diving skills (or belly-flops) at this obstacle. Don’t spend too much time pondering your leap – Marines at the top of the platform will chew you out, or worse, push you into the freezing depths below.
see pictures here

i'm afraid of heights.
these will be the biggest challenge for me.
that's why i have a team though.
the five of us will get each other through.
i'll be praying a lot..
a lot!

how am i when i think about Tough Mudder on Sunday?
i'm FINE
freaked out, insecure, neurotic and emotional
(thank you Italian Job for the definition)

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