5 years ago

5 years ago i wrote in my journal 

(well, actually 5 years ago tomorrow i wrote in it) 

and said that i had, to date, the worst day of my life.

over the last couple years May 17th has come and gone without much thought.

but today for whatever reason i woke thinking about 5 years ago.

i read my journal from that day, 

and then had breakfast and cried while i thanked God for my family.

for my children.

the precious treasures they are.

and that they have their father.

and i have my husband.

we laugh together.

we encourage each other.

we argue.

we work out issues.

we love each other.

i am so unbelievably thankful for my husband.

i am thankful that God has blessed me with him.

he is a gift to me.

to my children.

i need to remember to cherish each moment with him.

and to thank the Lord for the strength to get through that day, and many others.

i'm also thankful for the friends and family that He has provided for me to lean on when needed.

because i really didn't think i would make it.

life and marriage aren't easy.

they're an adventure.

but i rely on God to provide me with the strength to deal with whatever comes my way.

and today i remember how much i love the man i married 12.5 years ago.

i think i need to tell him when i see him.